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Andrew Gillum opened up about the circumstances that led him to a drug-fueled sex orgy with two men that ended his once-promising political career.

Gillum, the former Democratic gubernatorial candidate in Florida, made headlines after he was found drunk on a bathroom floor at a luxury Miami Beach hotel with a naked male escort who was suspected of overdosing on crystal meth.

In an Instagram video on Tuesday, Gillum described the shame and "great embarrassment" he felt "from the harm that I had caused... I needed real help to try to unpack that."

Gillum captioned the video: "I am thankful to so many of you who have wished me well during this especially challenging time. I wanted to provide a personal update on how I have been doing. Take good care of yourselves during this season and I will see you on the other side. Warmest, Andrew."

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Gillum said the words "feeling" and "shame" multiple times during the 11-minute video.

"It's one thing to feel guilty for a harm you feel you may have caused someone," he said. "That's how you know you're human. That's how you know you're not a sociopath."

He said being a Black man in America, during a time of Black Lives Matter and "anti-blackness," caused him "to look for other ways to try to numb" his pain and "do some mind shift."

"I know as a Black man... what it means to have to convince people that your life has meaning. Convince people that... your life has purpose, not to be set above anybody but just to be treated on a level that's equal to everybody else around you."

He urged people who are struggling with their addictions to "be kind to yourself." He said "there is no perfect person. There is no perfect life. We're all just struggling to get by and to do better."

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The father-of-three concluded by thanking his wife and "life partner, my wife RJ, a woman who knows everything that I am and everything that I am not. And she chooses to love me anyhow. A woman who is literally God's grace on earth - the epitome of grace."
 

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To her fans, supermodel Adwoa Aboah seems to have the world at her fingertips. She even has her own Barbie doll in her likeness.

But the 28-year-old British model says she has been pushed to "a dark breaking point" over insecurities due to her mixed-race.

Aboah is the daughter of English fashion booking agent Camilla Lowther, who is Caucasian, and Ghanaian location scout Charles Aboah.

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The runway Diva tells U.K. magazine Elle she spent much of her life "quietly hiding her insecurities and internalizing her shame" over her mixed race heritage.

Aboah confessed that she felt she "wasn't white enough, nor Black enough" during her teenage years.

"I'd watch from the sidelines as certain friends flourished in social situations, all carefree and glowing, while I quietly hid my insecurities and internalized my shame," she recalled, adding she wanted to "be like everyone else".

She agonized over the disinterest from boys she liked in school in Great Britain.

"Boys weren't into my braids, so I conformed – painfully relaxing my hair, which didn't win them over either."

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The leggy model confessed she "put on a facade" to make it in the modeling industry as a lanky teenager, which did nothing for her self-esteem.

"When I started receiving more attention and external validation, I hoped these superficial markers could carry me through. If I can just put on a facade and keep the messy feelings inside, I thought, they'll magically disappear. Instead, they followed me into adulthood, compounding over time and pushing me to a dark breaking point."

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Giving advice to the next generation, the Vogue cover star said be honest with yourself and speak openly about your insecurities rather than keep them inside.

"Speak up and find spaces that let you do so without judgment or shame. I previously did the opposite."

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She continued: "I learned to not talk about things: the fears I had, that we all have. I wasn't able to articulate them. If I had opened up back then, I would have realized that these things were natural."

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Robert Fuller, a 24-year-old Black man, was found hanging from a tree in front of Palmdale City Hall in Poncitlán Square around 3:39 a.m. Friday, VladTV.com reports.

Authorities believe Fuller committed suicide. The body showed no signs of a struggle and the scene was not disturbed, which would have indicated others hoisted his body into the tree.

Lt. Brandon Dean of the Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Homicide Bureau told reporters there was "nothing that would indicate he was put up there against his will. The rope wasn't thrown over but tied to the branch, which means somebody had to get up there and tie it."
 
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City officials believe Fuller was suffering from a mental health crisis, likely exacerbated by forced isolation during the coronavirus quarantine in California.

Fuller reportedly had a history of depression.

Last week, writer and author Jas Waters committed suicide by hanging. Her body was discovered in her home in California. She was 39.

If you are in crisis or having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text TALK to 741741.
 

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Writer Jas Waters' cause of death was revealed Thursday. Waters, also known as JasFly, died from suicide by hanging, E! News reports. She was 39.

Waters' death sent shockwaves through Hollywood. Her death was announced in a statement on the "This Is Us" writers Twitter account on Wednesday.

"The entire #ThisIsUs family was devastated to learn of Jas Waters passing," the statement read.

"In our time together, Jas left her mark on us and ALL over the show. She was a brilliant storyteller and a force of nature. We send our deepest sympathies to her loved ones. She was one of us. RIP @JasFly."

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Waters was a columnist for Vibe magazine. She was a writer on Comedy Central's "Hood Adjacent with James Davis," VH1's "The Breaks," and "Kidding" on Showtime. She was also an alum on VH1's reality series "The Gossip Game."

Additionally, she had a story credit on the Taraji P. Henson feature "What Men Want."

Waters' close friends comforted each other in a private Facebook group on Thursday. They said she took her own life after suffering from depression and anxiety for many years. "The coronavirus lockdown pushed her over the edge," wrote one grieving friend.

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Jas Waters, a writer for "This Is Us" and ”Kidding", has died in Los Angeles at age 39.

Her death was announced in a statement on the "This Is Us" writers Twitter account on Wednesday.

"The entire #ThisIsUs family was devastated to learn of Jas Waters passing," the statement read.

"In our time together, Jas left her mark on us and ALL over the show. She was a brilliant storyteller and a force of nature. We send our deepest sympathies to her loved ones. She was one of us. RIP @JasFly."

While no cause of death was given, friends say she took her own life after suffering from depression and anxiety for years. She struggled with fear of the unknown and isolation while on quarantine.

Waters was a writer on Comedy Central's "Hood Adjacent with James Davis," VH1's "The Breaks," and "Kidding" on Showtime. She was an alum on VH1's reality series "The Gossip Game."

Additionally, she had a story credit on the Taraji P. Henson feature "What Men Want."

Friends and followers were stunned by the news of her passing. They shared tributes to Waters on Twitter.

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Former Playboy Playmate Ashley Mattingly apparently took her own life while quarantining at her home in Texas. She was 33.

Ashley was found dead at her home in Bee Cave, Texas, about 15 miles outside of Austin, Texas, her family tells PEOPLE. She left several suicide notes, although further details are still unknown.

Her siblings say they can't bring themselves to read her suicide notes. They said she struggled with alcohol and substance abuse.

The model was found unresponsive on Thursday after a friend called police to conduct a welfare check because they had not heard from her.

The family is caring for her golden retriever puppy that she recently adopted to "overcome these demons," her family said.

"Our hope is that Ashley's story can continue to shed a light on suicide awareness and prevention. We love you Ashley," a statement read.

Calls to suicide hotlines have soared in many states due to coronavirus anxiety and depression aggravated by loneliness and social isolation.

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A teenager who was obsessed with social media took her own life after not getting enough 'likes' on her photos.

Chloe Davison, 19, hanged herself in her bedroom moments after she was active on social media, her mother told The Sun newspaper.

"She thought she wasn't good enough unless she was getting loads of likes and comments," Clair Reynolds said.

Chloe was an aspiring model whose self-esteem was closely linked to social media engagement with her photos.

"She was addicted to apps like Instagram and Snapchat," said family friend Nick Coombs, who knew Chloe since she was a youngster.

Coombs, 55, said Chloe was addicted to selfies. "She would spend hours taking the perfect photo, but would delete it later if it didn't get popular enough," Coombs said.

Reynolds said Chloe struggled scholastically and she was a loner who rarely hung out with friends.

As a result of her self-imposed isolation Chloe was often taunted and bullied online by trolls who made fun of her pictures.

"Chloe was crying many nights because someone had said something horrible about her online," her older sister Jade Davison told a reporter.

Jade and her mother returned home Friday night from a bar around 11:30 p.m., and found Chloe hanging in her bedroom.

"When we took her body down, her hair and makeup were still perfect," said Coombs who was at the house when Chloe killed herself.

"She was wearing some new lingerie that she'd been excited to model," he said.

"Chloe was beautiful, but she didn't see that," said her mum. "She cared too much about how other people saw her."

If you or someone you know is in emotional distress or suicidal crisis, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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The producer who created the hit TV series "Ugly Betty" was found dead in a Miami hotel room on Tuesday. Police say Silvio Horta died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound. He was 45.

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Despite his success, the openly homosexual producer had previously spoken about being unhappy due to the stress of his work, according to London's Daily Mail.

Ben Silverman acquired the rights to the Spanish-language hit "Yo Soy Betty La Fea" (I am Betty the Ugly One) in 2006. He hired Horta to adapt it to the small screen.

Silverman described the Cuban show-runner as "An incredible voice and talent and a rare person, a gay Cuban writer who hit the mainstream as a kid and never could quite keep up with his own success."

Ugly Betty star America Ferrera also paid tribute to Horta, whom she described as a "joy and light."

"I'm stunned and heartbroken to hear the devastating news of Ugly Betty creator, Silvio Horta's death," Ferrera, 35, wrote on Instagram.

"His talent and creativity brought me and so many others such joy and light. I'm thinking of his family and loved ones who must be in so much pain right now - and of the whole Ugly Betty family who feel this loss deeply.

"It's sad that he wasn't happy in his own skin," Silverman told USA Today.

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Cardi B is the only female rapper on the list of Rappers Who Fell Off in 2019. The list includes Chance the Rapper, Blueface, Lil Yachty, A$AP Rocky, Lil Pump, Quavo (Migos), The Game, Sheck Wes, and more.

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The 27-year-old rapper was once at the top of her game. It’s hard to think of another rapper - male or female - who dominated the music industry faster than Cardi B. And she did it on the strength of just one song ("Bodak Yellow")

She was destined for rap legend status - until Lizzo and Megan Thee Stallion came along and stole her thunder.

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Cardi B was almost unrecognizable as she went makeup free. She seemed deep in thought while doing a little Christmas shopping at Miami's Aventura mall on the last weekend before Christmas.

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She wore a blue button down sweater minidress with black sandals. Her stops included Louis Vuitton, Ferrari, Foot Locker, Gucci, a baby clothing store and a bakery. The rapper was seen talking on her cell phone while being flanked by her security escort.

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2019 was an amazing year for Cardi. She won 40 major music awards including a Grammy Award, four American Music Awards, four BET Awards, eleven BET Hip Hop Awards, and an MTV Award.

She also appeared in her first big screen film Hustlers with Jennifer Lopez and Lizzo.

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Idris Elba is trying to cut down on his use of social media because he gets so depressed by the instant access to world news.

Like most celebrities, the Thor star can't get enough of the addictive nature of social media. According to WENN.com, the 47-year-old British actor is an active user of Twitter and Instagram but he finds world events saddening.

"I've been trying to wean myself off," the actor and DJ tells Fast Company magazine. "I used to post a lot more, but it's been putting me off lately. And Twitter's just not how I want to receive my news.

"I read the news aggregated on my iPad, but I can't check it constantly - I'm not proud of it, but it's true - because it makes me feel depressed."

Instead, Idris is weaning himself off of social media by clearing his head, saying: "I'll just sit in the dark, stare, and try not to do anything - just clear my mind and decompress."

The superstar says he only sleeps "four or five" hours a night, and he schedules his time in terms of projects rather than days or hours.

"I don't think in terms of minutes or hours or days or dates, especially because I'm traveling between time zones," he adds. "My home base is London, but I could be working anywhere around the world. I pretty much know my schedule for the whole year, and I think of it in terms of blocks of time, where each project is a block."
 

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Shad Moss, formerly known as Bow Wow, opened up about his battle with depression and he hints that he may have been a victim of domestic abuse. The pint-size rapper-turned-actor says he went through a "life-changing moment" when he was jailed after being arrested along with his girlfriend on assault charges.

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