Megan Thee Stallion feels betrayed by ex-boyfriend Tory Lanez. In a cover story for Rolling Stone magazine, Megan, 27, said her experience with Lanez caused her to lose trust in men.
Megan was allegedly shot in the foot by Lanez during a squabble in July 2020. He is awaiting trial on the attempted murder charge.
She says she raps about some of the pain and anguish she endured in her second studio album, which she hopes to release this summer.
"I want to take you through so many different emotions," she says of the album. "At first you was twerking, now you might be crying."
Megan says she still has nightmares about the shooting that nearly ended her life.
"'Right now we're going through some dark things. You are built for this,'" she says, referring to herself in the third party. "'God must got something good planned for you, because I don't think he'll put you through this if he wasn't going to give you your reward at the end.'"
"I'm trying every day to get through it and be good," she cried. "I feel so bad because I don't feel like anybody's taking me seriously, but I don't want them to see me cry. I don't want them to know that I feel like this, because I don't want them to feel like, 'Oh, I got you. I'm breaking you.'"
She has only dark thoughts about the 29-year-old rapper - she wants to see him pay for his crime when he goes to trial in September.
Speaking to herself, she said, "'I feel like you've already tried to break me enough. You've already shot me. So, why are you dragging it out like this? Like, what else? Have you hated me this much the whole time and I didn't see it?'"
"I thought we had a real connection. I thought he knew me. And I never would’ve thought he would’ve shot at me," she said.
She added: "I want him to go to jail. I want him to go under the jail."