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Vanessa Bryant opened up about her grieving process, saying her "brain refuses to accept" both her husband Kobe Bryant, 41, and 13-year-old daughter Gianna Bryant are gone.

Kobe and Gianna, along with seven others, died in a tragic helicopter crash in Calabasas, California 2 weeks ago.

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In an emotional Instagram post alongside video of Gigi and her teammates Payton Chester, 13, and Allysa Altobelli, 14, who also died in the crash, Vanessa, 37, wrote the "nightmare" just feels "wrong."

"I've been reluctant to put my feelings into words," she said. "My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can't process both at the same time."

She continued: "It's like I'm trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong.

"Why should I be able to have that opportunity?! I'm so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I'm not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I'm here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri."

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Vanessa said she is sharing her thought process with her followers "in case there's anyone out there that's experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all."

Vanessa shared the post hours before a stadium memorial for the three members of the Altobeli family who died in the crash. 4,000 mourners are expected to attend the memorial.

It is not clear if Vanessa will be in attendance.
 

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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

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