Saundra Adams Chancellor Adams

Convicted killer Rae Carruth has changed his mind about seeking custody of his special needs son after he is released from a North Carolina prison later this year. Carruth, 44, served 17 years for the murder of his pregnant girlfriend, Cherica Adams.

In a letter to Cherica’s mother Saundra Adams that he sent to WBTV, Carruth said he wanted custody of his 18-year-old son Chancellor Lee Adams.

“I should be raising my son. His mother should be raising her son,” Carruth said. “Ms. Adams should not be doing this and I want that responsibility back.”

Chancellor, who turns 19 a month before Carruth is set to be released, was born with cerebral palsy and brain damage due to lack of oxygen when his mother bled out after she was shot multiple times by a friend of Carruth’s.

But there was some pushback from Chancellor’s grandmother, Saundra Adams.

“I’ve forgiven Rae already, but to have any type of relationship with him, there does have to be some repentance,” Adams told the Charlotte Observer on Monday. “And I think this opens the door. But I can say definitively he’s not ever going to have custody of Chancellor.

In a letter sent to The Charlotte Observer, Carruth indicated he would not seek custody of his son or be involved in his life:

“For all involved or invested in this ordeal, please calm down. I will no longer be pursuing a relationship with Chancellor and Ms. Adams. I promise to leave them be, which I now see is in everyone’s best interest.”